Monday: It’s true, first you cry. And you can’t stop, and you feel hopeless and helpless and why me and what the fuck is the point. I’m finally living where I want to live, in a community I dearly love, doing what I dearly love - healings and readings and writing - and this happens.
Thank you for putting pen to paper and telling us what you are dealing with. Along with unburdening yourself, you gain warriors to send you the strength and healing vibes you need to send that cancer on its way. I need to tell you about my niece Katie who was diagnosed with stage 4 ovarian cancer. She lives in San Francisco and went to a very good treatment center. Chemo and autoimmune treatments were the prescribed treatment and Katie added the diet, yoga, meditation and, because she’s a lawyer (for women mistreated in the workplace) she did research, research, and more research. At the end of her treatment, she was cancer free but on a hunch, she decided to go to Houston for a 2nd opinion. After all, it’s the best center for cancer in the US and the flights are free (grants from corporations). She had SF send all of her files and tissue samples to Houston and made an appointment. First consultation she learns that SF has missed the underlying 2% non-curable cancer that they have found in the tissue samples. They proceed to do all the scans, MRI’s, bloodwork etc… to see where the cancer is. Katie call us with the news but insists she’s going to be ok. She continues the diet and yoga and embraces the cancer, loving it but telling it that it can’t stay. She goes in for her next appt for test results and is told they can’t find any cancer, the cancer is gone. So either SF has unwittingly stumbled on a cure for this incurable cancer or, as Katie says, maybe it was the diet and yoga, maybe the 10 nuns we know in Santa Monica prayed it away, maybe it was all her cancer warriors praying and meditating or, maybe it’s a modern day miracle. In any event, she will continue her immunotherapy treatments for 6 months and fly to Houston for her follow ups. She is currently taking courses to become a certified yoga instructor, specializing in cancer patients. Something that wasn’t available in SF that she says would have been invaluable to her. If you would like to speak with her via phone or email, let me know. I’ll tell you two things she lived by, no fear was allowed. “No room for fear here” was her motto. Also, she embraced the cancer with all the love she could muster but told it that it couldn’t stay, visualized it leaving. Kat, I will be doing the same for you. I will be lighting a candle on my altar and visualizing it away, and sending you strength and healing love and light. I love you ❤️🙏❤️
I’m a selfish ass who loves you beyond words. Didn’t find the time before my 50th reunion to open your “newsletter “ thinking we have nothing but time. Did I mention I’m a selfish ass? You and your words exploded my universe. I am eating them up so I can digest your pain, fear, love and messed up world. I am dedicating myself to you. Whether you need me or not, you’re stuck with me forever. A cancer hating friend who will be more than a selfish ass. I’m healing ❤️🩹 my broken, slightly sick heart, so you can use it as needed. xoxoxo
Wow, some very good stream of consciousness in this article. I'm glad I found your newsletter by searching for "colorectal cancer." I subscribed for free for now but may upgrade. I'm a Substack newbie, and invite you to look at my newsletter about surviving advanced colorectal cancer. Best regards, and let's stay in touch.
Thank you for putting pen to paper and telling us what you are dealing with. Along with unburdening yourself, you gain warriors to send you the strength and healing vibes you need to send that cancer on its way. I need to tell you about my niece Katie who was diagnosed with stage 4 ovarian cancer. She lives in San Francisco and went to a very good treatment center. Chemo and autoimmune treatments were the prescribed treatment and Katie added the diet, yoga, meditation and, because she’s a lawyer (for women mistreated in the workplace) she did research, research, and more research. At the end of her treatment, she was cancer free but on a hunch, she decided to go to Houston for a 2nd opinion. After all, it’s the best center for cancer in the US and the flights are free (grants from corporations). She had SF send all of her files and tissue samples to Houston and made an appointment. First consultation she learns that SF has missed the underlying 2% non-curable cancer that they have found in the tissue samples. They proceed to do all the scans, MRI’s, bloodwork etc… to see where the cancer is. Katie call us with the news but insists she’s going to be ok. She continues the diet and yoga and embraces the cancer, loving it but telling it that it can’t stay. She goes in for her next appt for test results and is told they can’t find any cancer, the cancer is gone. So either SF has unwittingly stumbled on a cure for this incurable cancer or, as Katie says, maybe it was the diet and yoga, maybe the 10 nuns we know in Santa Monica prayed it away, maybe it was all her cancer warriors praying and meditating or, maybe it’s a modern day miracle. In any event, she will continue her immunotherapy treatments for 6 months and fly to Houston for her follow ups. She is currently taking courses to become a certified yoga instructor, specializing in cancer patients. Something that wasn’t available in SF that she says would have been invaluable to her. If you would like to speak with her via phone or email, let me know. I’ll tell you two things she lived by, no fear was allowed. “No room for fear here” was her motto. Also, she embraced the cancer with all the love she could muster but told it that it couldn’t stay, visualized it leaving. Kat, I will be doing the same for you. I will be lighting a candle on my altar and visualizing it away, and sending you strength and healing love and light. I love you ❤️🙏❤️
P.S. Fuck Cancer xoxo
Hon - I am hugging you so hard right now. Sending you so much love <3 <3
thank you for sharing your journey
and thank you for reading x0
I’m a selfish ass who loves you beyond words. Didn’t find the time before my 50th reunion to open your “newsletter “ thinking we have nothing but time. Did I mention I’m a selfish ass? You and your words exploded my universe. I am eating them up so I can digest your pain, fear, love and messed up world. I am dedicating myself to you. Whether you need me or not, you’re stuck with me forever. A cancer hating friend who will be more than a selfish ass. I’m healing ❤️🩹 my broken, slightly sick heart, so you can use it as needed. xoxoxo
Wow, some very good stream of consciousness in this article. I'm glad I found your newsletter by searching for "colorectal cancer." I subscribed for free for now but may upgrade. I'm a Substack newbie, and invite you to look at my newsletter about surviving advanced colorectal cancer. Best regards, and let's stay in touch.
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